"yeah?"

“Hey babe”

"Hi"

“How was your day?”

He’s been sick lately. I’ve been trying to talk him into going to a doctor. I worry about him; more then I would if he was here where I could take care of him.

"Wow, that’s a loaded question"

Loaded question? It’s the same question I ask at some point every time we talk. I want to know how his day went, what he did; he’s important to me.

“What do you mean?”

"Just a lot happened today. One of Those days, but in a good way."

Well at least its good right. No need to start plotting the death of whoever hurt him.

“I’m glad. Are you feeling better then?”

I hope so. I miss some of our more adventurous conversations.

"Dom, are you sitting down?"

Sitting down?

“No, why? Should I be?”

"Maybe…"

Maybe? Why the hell should I be sitting down? He’s not…

“Brian is something wrong? You said it was a good day…”

"I’m um… well, see the thing is I’m kinda… that is we’re… are you sitting down? I really think you should sit down."

Oh God. Oh Shit something’s wrong.

“Shit! Brian! Just tell me what’s going on? Are you in trouble? Are you sick? What’s Wrong!?!?!”

"I’m prennnnnmmm"

Ok he’s mumbling. Why is he so scared to tell me? I love him. I just want to make everything ok for him. He can’t tell me anything that would make me turn from him… doesn’t he know that?

“Brian, please are you ok?”

"I’m pregnant."

pregnant. He’s… wow he’s pregnant. I think I better sit down now.

“…”

"Dom?

I don’t think I can talk. Somehow this is not what I expected. I’m gonna be a father, - again.

“… ugbh?”

"Dom? I’m sorry."

He’s sorry? For what? I’m sitting on the kitchen floor with a goofy grin trying to picture what Brian’s gonna look like round with my child. MY child and I’m going to be there this time; experience everything from doctors appointments to holding his hand during delivery. I’m going to be one of the first people to hold our baby. The way it should have been with Jade.

“… What? Why are you sorry?”

"You’re obviously not happy about this."

That’s when it hits me. I haven’t been telling him any of this. I’ve been silent. Well of course he’s going to think that. I haven’t told him how happy I am about it.

“No I am. I am, I’m just… I mean it’s just a surprise. I wasn’t expecting it. *A baby*. We’re gonna have a baby. Oh God Brian you’re pregnant!”

"Yeah."

He still doesn’t sound to sure. God I fucked this up. I’m gonna have to send flowers or something.

“I’m… I just never considered that… I mean we hadn’t talked about it. I’m happy. I am, Brian, very happy.”

"Yeah me to… Hey Social Services finished there investigation and found no reason to take Jade away so we can schedule her visit now."

Social service’s is done with their investigation, this is great. Soon Jade will be here and all we have to wait for is for his citizenship papers to go through. Then we’ll be a family.

“Shit, no wonder you said it was One of Those days. Anything else I should know about?”

I got my Mexican citizenship papers today?"

Holy shit. Good things really do come in three’s this is incredible.

“Shit you should buy a lottery ticket while you’re at it.”

"Yeah well…"

“I love you, Brian… God you’re pregnant.”

I’m sounding redundant I know but he’s pregnant.

"Yeah I think we covered that."

Now he laughing at me…

"Hey now, No reason to laugh; I’m in a bit of shock here."

I Love you Dom.

“I Love you too.”

"Dom I was thinking July 4th."

The 4th? I must have missed part of the conversation I’m still on the baby…

“For what babe?”

For Jade’s visit."

“You want to start her visit on a holiday?”

"An American holiday, Dom… A busy American family holiday. You’re my family, you and Jade. I want to at least see you."

God. I hate that we have to go through this. I don’t want to watch him from across the border. But I will. All damn day if he wants.

“What ever you want, love. Hell, if you want I’ll get us a couple of cell phones and we can sit at the border all day and stare at each other. I can’t wait until we’re having these conversations in bed. I want to hold you and share my day with you. I want to be able to lean over and kiss you when ever I want. I need to feel you next to me Brian.”

It’s true. And now that need is worse. He’s pregnant, carrying my baby. I should be by his side; not in another country hiding from the US law.

“Soon, Dom I promise soon."

God I hope that’s the truth