It’s not that I don’t love Mia cause I do. It’s just that I never really wanted kids. I never wanted to take the chance that I could be like my father. Every little god damn thing I did wrong or went wrong for him was taken out on my ass. Too many broken bones, too many black eyes, too much fear, no child should go through that. He always said it was my fault and there were days that I believed him, when I wished to grow up so I would stop annoying him.

I’m a jerk I know that, I’m rough around the edges, I can be loud, vulgar, I drink to much, I swear to much and I can be violent. I’m a lot like my dad. I don’t know how to handle this. I worry everyday that I’ll hit Mia, that something will happen and I won’t be able to control myself. It’s not as bad as when we first started but it’s still there everyday at the back of my mind. And now there’s going to be a child… my child and I don’t know how to be a father, I don’t know how to raise a child. I don’t know what to do, normally I’d go to Dom. Dom’s a great friend, always listens, always been there for me, encouraging me, bailing me out of trouble and giving advice. But this is his sister… How can I tell him that I got her pregnant and I’m not ready to deal with it, that I never wanted kids…?